A Smiling Young Widow
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Three Years Since That Day
I was looking for a picture of Tom on a trip to Hawaii we took the month before he died. I clicked for my phone to search by his face and was ready to scroll. Then the realization hit, of course the last photo I have of Tom will always be from April 10th, 2023.…
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Dancing in Duality
The week after Tom’s funeral I listened to my mom try to access her credit card account over the phone and fail every one of her own security questions. I laughed, like really laughed. I think I remember the moment so vividly because it was such a foreign thing to experience deep darkness and laughter…
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Anxiety: The Missing Stage of Grief
This is the title Claire Bidwell Smith gave to her book, and honestly it rings very true –though of course with the caveat that there really are no linear stages of grief, it is a squiggly messy route through it. As I look back, anxiety was a big theme of year two of my grief.…
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The Overwhelming Presence of an Absence
The holidays can hit hard. It’s a bit like the love bombing of Valentine’s day, but this is a long season that seems to almost pressure cook our grief. I’ve been reflecting on how far I’ve come on my grief journey to find a sort of balance, holding both the joy and sadness that this…
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